i have ceased living

routine.
routine.
routine.
routine.

alarm goes off at 6:15am
press snooze 3 times, get up at 6:30.

stagger to the shower.
step out at 6:40.

put on clothes while eating some bland breakfast food
i.e. kashi cereal
plain bagel
toast
(they're all i have. i never complain)
finish at 7:00

pack for the day
scrounge for lunch money or whatever
wait for Geneva
walk to school at 7:20am

7:45am-1:05pm
fall asleep successfully in every class during the school day
think about how much i want a cigarette
think about how much i want to die at the moment
think about what i'm going to eat when i get home
think about everything but what i'm supposed to...

1:30pm
come home
smoke
eat
do homework
smoke

3:15pm
sit quietly
go on the computer

6:00pm
study
eat dinner
study or write

11:00pm
go to sleep