fat bitch

why is it that if you're fat, people usually only mention that you're fat if you're mean?
like if you have a fat friend and they're nice, you're (usually) not going to say "oh, my fat friend..." You want to be nice about it and not be down on their weight.

but if they're mean, it's not uncommon to refer to them as "that fat bitch"

just sayin'

i have ceased living

routine.
routine.
routine.
routine.

alarm goes off at 6:15am
press snooze 3 times, get up at 6:30.

stagger to the shower.
step out at 6:40.

put on clothes while eating some bland breakfast food
i.e. kashi cereal
plain bagel
toast
(they're all i have. i never complain)
finish at 7:00

pack for the day
scrounge for lunch money or whatever
wait for Geneva
walk to school at 7:20am

7:45am-1:05pm
fall asleep successfully in every class during the school day
think about how much i want a cigarette
think about how much i want to die at the moment
think about what i'm going to eat when i get home
think about everything but what i'm supposed to...

1:30pm
come home
smoke
eat
do homework
smoke

3:15pm
sit quietly
go on the computer

6:00pm
study
eat dinner
study or write

11:00pm
go to sleep