lions and tigers

the first additions to my new walls. thank you, dollartree!
i call my walls new because i took down everything that previously adorned them.
my dad is mad that i took down john lennon. fck jhn lnnn

so now the majority of my walls are bare
and it makes me feel alone
like i'm in a new apartment that still smells like meth fumes.

so far, this is my favorite addition to the new walls.

boo boo

today i was cutting a bagel for breakfast with a very large knife. and i sliced my finger,

"ouch"

so then i went to emergency.

and i got it repaired via medical superglue.

it is small yet very deep and i cannot feel my left pointer finger. geneva says that it won't matter if i have nerve damage in my finger because i won't need feeling for anything in particular in that area.

THANX geneva for not caring if i have permanent neurological DAMAGE

TAKE A LOOK!!!

dying dogs

i am a human being.

i do not wish to brag about the things that i can do.

i try to eat breakfast daily.

i don't want to be like you, whoever you are.

Last night I had a dream. From what I remember, it was me, Gianni, Geneva, and some random boy with blonde hair (RT?) going around other people's back yards for a zoo exhibit that we had heard of from somebody. We were looking over back fences to take a gander at all of the animals, but all I saw were dead dogs. Dead/dying/decomposing. Their skin was rotting and bloody. They were dead. 

But they weren't so dead when there came hoards of children running and screaming toward the animals, excited to play with them. We watched them commence playing with the bodies until the dogs came to life. So the dogs were zombie dogs, they still had wounds and were basically falling apart with visible bones and innards hanging here and there. But those dogs were so excited to see people. People that wanted to play with them. People that were kind and were not reluctant to interact with them, just because they were presumably "disgusting".

This dream didn't scare me, it wasn't a nightmare. But after thinking about it all day I get a little bit of insight, if I have gotten the idea that I was supposed to out of it.

this week

i'm happy

friday

its good.

this gets explicit...

school & online sluts

will be a big day, because TOMORROW

is the first day of school.

that means today is the last day of summer, what a sad day it is.

and i didn't even have as much fun as i thought i would...

but what can you do?

me, maddy, and jordan were watching true life after maddy got home from a PAP SMEAR

i said it.

anyway, we were watching the one on people who have internet lives, and how a couple of those girls (who aren't really lookers to be honest) just talk dirty with guys in chat rooms and one of them pays her rent through her creepy webcam site. and shes still in highschool. the other one is like 800 pounds.

so that just got me to think, and i have realized that one can never get out of the house enough... so you dont get some strange social anxiety disorder. that is all.